30 blogs in 30 days -- DAY 24-26

took a few days off to tell you about my life. so here is another catch up day.

day 24 -- a letter to your parents

dear mom and dad,

thank you. i feel as if those words could be said every second of every day for the rest of my life and it wouldnt be enough. thank you. i love you forever and always.

love,
me


day 25 -- what would i find in your purse.

mirror, keys, phone, chapstick, lip gloss, pens and pencils, wallet, planner, notebook, glasses, sunglasses, advil bottle, word search

day 26 -- what do you think about your friends.

i think they are the bomb.com. i have awesome friends who are so loyal and fab. im a lucky lucky girl.

i am part of a symphony.

1  Praise the Lord!
Praise the Lord from the heavens;
praise him in the heights!2  Praise him, all his angels;
praise him, all his hosts!

3  Praise him, sun and moon,
praise him, all you shining stars!4  Praise him, you highest heavens,
and you waters above the heavens!

5  Let them praise the name of the Lord!
For he commanded and they were created.6  And he established them forever and ever;
he gave a decree, and it shall not pass away.t

7  Praise the Lord from the earth,
you great sea creatures and all deeps,8  fire and hail, snow and mist,
stormy wind fulfilling his word!

9  Mountains and all hills,
fruit trees and all cedars!10  Beasts and all livestock,
creeping things and flying birds!

11  Kings of the earth and all peoples,
princes and all rulers of the earth!12  Young men and maidens together,
old men and children!

13  Let them praise the name of the Lord,
for his name alone is exalted;
his majesty is above earth and heaven.14  He has raised up a horn for his people,
praise for all his saints,
for the people of Israel who are near to him.
Praise the Lord! 

last night i went to a chris tomlin concert.  i went with my 4 best friends and it was the best night I have had in a long time. sometimes i feel like God uses peoples stories to push into my heart. last night he used Louie Giglio. that man is so insane in love with jesus it pours out of him. during the middle of the concert, louie came out and started talking about psalm 148 (above). he describes how there are so many things in this world that create a symphony for Christ, an audible symphony. he let us listen to two different stars that rotate on their axis a certain number of times a second and it makes this awesome sound, one like a drum and one like different notes right after the other. he then let us listen to whales singing. he then combined them all together and added it "how great is our god" chorus and it was the most moving thing. i got chills as the tears rolled down my face. 

here is a video of all the sounds complied. SO moving. (this was in baltimore, but it was the same thing as we heard!)

 i mean, how insane is that? so beautiful. and to think that is only a small bit of what God hears at all times. he went on to explain hod God wants YOU to be a part of this beautiful symphony. he desires YOUR voice. so insane. this was one very moving and incredible experience. 

as he whispers

i recently had a talk with a sweet friend of mine. we were talking about how sometimes we feel like there is no big sin issue in our lives, that we just feel okay. i talked about how that can easily lead into becoming stagnant and how that isnt what i want. we both felt that in that moment God wasnt really telling us something that we needed to work on, that he was just showing us grace and love from himself.

of course, after talking i prayed that if there was something that i need to work on or let go off that he would make it very clear to me. you see, for as long as i can remember i strive to listen to God's voice and his call on my heart. i think i miss it because it doesnt come in some fancy box. i have now realized that mine my not come with thunder and lightning but rather in a whisper to my heart, an overwhelming feeling. it penetrates my soul when given the oppotunity to sit quietly, its the first thing i can think about.

i was sitting in church on sunday morning and this happened. there is a relationship in my life that is quite frustrating. i cant tell what the reason is, but i know that it isnt right. we had a moment mid-sermon to quiet our hearts and listen to God. the FIRST thing that came to my mind was the talk to this person. to approach them and ask for forgiveness and reconcile the relationship. i knew it was God speaking because i couldnt let it go for the whole day. still now, as I sit here i am thinking constantly about the conversation i must have. i have been praying that it goes well and that neither they or i feel attacked.

i thought that was it, i thought that was all that God was going to give me. hahaha, i think that is what he does when I say things like that. later that night i went out to Biola with a few friends for a weekly worship service they have called Singspo. i LOVE this. as i was standing there worshipping listening to the words, I felt this overwhelming feeling of surrender. i felt that i had been holding onto my own life and my plans so tightly that I wasnt giving them to the one who deserves them. i fell to my knees asking that he would "rid me of myself". those words have been repeated in my heart over and over again for the past 2 days. rid me of myself. know that i am not my own.

this is a struggle. to give up what i want, and trusting that God knows better. i struggle giving up control. yet the joy of letting go is so much more than the joy i get from controlling my own life. i have to remember that.

i am not my own, rid me of myself father.

this song is the song that most reminded me of this thought. it resonates with my soul and expresses my heart in this moment.

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

30 blogs in 30 days -- DAY 23

man, this is hard to keep up with.

day 23 -- something you crave often.

 

the end.

30 blogs in 30 days -- DAY 22

day 22 -- what makes you different than everyone else.

i have tiny, underdeveloped ears.
that my toenails are ALWAYS painted (except for now, im letting them rest for a few days)
i love wearing jewelry, but hardly ever wear any.
i love the freeing feeling i get when i am in the water.
i love scars because they tell stories.
i love to quilt, and im pretty good at it :)
my closet is in rainbow order.
my favorite flowers are tulips.
i am a sucker for reality TV.
i LOOOOVE wind.

those are just a few things  :)

30 blogs in 30 days -- DAY 18-21

so, again i have been lacking. school is getting pretty hardcore. nonetheless. here we GO!

day 18 -- plans, dreams, goals you have.

well, i made a list a few months ago about things that i want to do in 2011 and then another one of things i want to do before I die.

this is my list for 2011. i have completed some of them, but not as many as i would have liked.

my list for my life is rather long, but ill pick 10 things to share with you
1. Take a trip to Israel to see the sights of the bible
2. Dance surrounded by fireflies
3. Be in Times Square on NYE when the ball drops
4. Run a marathon
5. Ride a camel
6. Be a regular in a restaurant as an elderly woman
7. Do a Christmas night annual party every year
8. Get a piece of jewelry from every place i visit
9. Have a library
10. Create a pot or vase that i love.

day 19 -- something that stresses you out.

 when i loose control or feel like i cant get everything done in the time that i have to do it in. also, driving behind or around a big rig or car carrier. no thanks.

day 20 -- hope for the future.

i would say essentially my hope is to fall in love, get married, have kids and love Jesus more each day as i long along in my life. also, that my kids would be passionate followers of Jesus.

day 21 -- picture of something that makes you happy.

there are so many things, i am having a hard time finding things. there are so many. UGHHH!

this boy

 my hair blowing in the wind

 older couples who are still fantastically in love.

whole-hearted worship

30 blogs in 30 days -- DAY 13-17

so, this week we had our carpet taken out and hard wood floors put in so the internet has been down. boo. so here is a catch up post.

day 13 -- a letter to someone who has blessed you recently

dear nichole,

this week has been crazy for me not being able to go home. thank you so much for opening your home to me and letting me hang out with you all the time. this past few weeks has been so much fun hanging out with you more and creating new memories. i love spending time with you and i am going to miss you so much when you go to Kauai. as i was driving home the other night i was thinking about how you being gone is going to be so sad! but i am also very excited for you. VERY! i cant wait for skype dates and fun packages and letters. ugh.

thanks for letting me veg and be apart of your family recently! love you!

-amy


day 14 -- a picture of you and your family

momma

daddy

brother

day 15 --put your ipod on shuffle, first 10 songs

1. Forever -- Chris Brown
2. One Pure and Holy Passion -- Passion Band
3. Boys of Summer --  The Ataris
4. Everlasting God --  Chris Tomlin
5. The Truth --  Lacrae
6. There's Nothing -- Sean Kingston
7. Ghost of a Good thing -- Dashboard Confessionals
8. Pimp -- 50 Cent
9. Pieces -- Rascal Flatts
10. Sorry -- Jonas Brothers


day 16 --  a picture of your favorite/ recent memory

jumping off hanalei pier

jumping off kipu falls

day 17 -- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why


this one is really hard, there are so many people that i would like to be for a day. but mostly John from the bible cause he was Jesus's BFF. so rad.