this much.

my heart is chaos right now. i dont know which way is up and where my head is at. all i know is that its better this way. maybe this happened because I am supposed to be this way and this is how God wanted to show me. maybe he is using the people in my life to tell me things about my heart.

he gives and takes away right?

why does the taking away suck so much? i struggle with knowing that God is controlling everything for my good. cause this doesnt feel like good. i mean, i head know it, but i dont heart know it. i know that this is better for meand my heart and emotions. but my heart doesnt want it, my heart was okay with the way things were going sometimes. my heart was willing to sacrifice. but i think that there is a line of sacrifice that one must not cross.

though the sorrow may last through the night, JOY comes in the morning!

 i have to remind myself that this isnt going to last forever. i have to know that Jesus knew that I could handle this and i have to take heart in knowing that he believed he me this much. how cool? i have to know that Jesus has a bigger and better plan for my life. a plan that may or may not include what is going on with me right now.

my hope is in you. i cant wait to see what you are going to do with all this. i love you jesus

You are good, You are good
When there's nothing good in me
You are love, You are love
On display for all to see
You are light, You are light
When the darkness closes in
You are hope, You are hope
You have covered all my sin

You are peace, You are peace
When my fear is crippling
You are true, You are true
Even in my wandering
You are joy, You are joy
You're the reason that I sing
You are life, You are life,
In You death has lost its sting

Oh, I’m running to Your arms,
I’m running to Your arms
The riches of Your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

You are more, You are more
Than my words will ever say
You are Lord, You are Lord
All creation will proclaim
You are here, You are here
In Your presence I'm made whole
You are God, You are God
Of all else I'm letting go

Oh, I’m running to Your arms
I’m running to Your arms
The riches of Your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

My heart will sing
no other Name
Jesus, Jesus

Oh, I’m running to Your arms
I’m running to Your arms
The riches of Your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign